I feel defeated

I have gained a significant amount of weight in the past few years (5ft 2in at 180lbs). My weight has always fluctuated over the years but I was always able to get back on track and keep it of for several years at a time however this time I cant s33m to. I dont usually eat much anyway some days i only eat one meal and my portions are small. My brother always says to me that he doesn't understand how i am fat when i dont even eat that much. I tried to cut back on a few things in January.

1. I dont drink my calories (i only consume water
2. I only allow myself one desert a week something that i would really enjoy and only eat 1 of the recommended serving of it.
   
3. I eat more vegatables with my meals
4. I cut out dairy
5. I eat my last meal at 6pm

I've only lost 4lbs and I'm really frustrated because I feel like i have no control over my anything in my life. I really feel like just giving up and what ever happens happens and not care about anything anymore.

I'm tired and sleepy all the time ,and I'm trying to be a different person who has lots of energy a person who is in control and who is healthy and got their ish together a new day comes and goes and dispite all my efforts I'm still the same overweight person I was yesterday(and I feel helpless). Idk I guess I dont know what to do. I just needed to vent or get some help I guess.

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