hi! this is so unlike me. this is my first reddit post.
the past year of my life had been hectic to say the least, and abuse relationship, getting into a healthy relationship, junior year college corona virus, etc.
to spare you the gory details, amidst all of this chaos, the abusive relationship i was in drove me to develop an eating disorder in which i lost 52 pounds (189 lbs to 137 lbs). during the ordeal i thought it was anything but, however looking at the situation now i never ate and vomited every time i did, cookie cutter ed...
since i for our that relationship, i have found someone who treats me so well and things got very happy for me. it was also pretty easy to admit that i enjoyed being a skinny college girl.
well i bring you to today. they say boyfriends make you fat, well i feel as if they do as i am back to 157 lbs. as sad as i am that i don’t have the rocking bod anymore, i’m happy that i can enjoy a meal without puking it up after.
i guess my point for this post was to ask if anyone else was going through something similar. i look at myself everyday and i get back to that mindset of “you let yourself go” “your fat now” etc. and i know what those thoughts can lead me to.
is there anything anyone would suggest i try? i’ve been trying to exercise however i work a busy schedule so sometimes i miss it. i wanna lose the weight however i refuse to resort to such behaviors that i did before. i don’t know, but thanks for reading this one post in the sea of others! i hope you are staying safe and healthy and if you have any advice, let me know :)
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