ready for help
hey everyone so i’m 17F and i weigh 175 as of today. when i was younger i was overweight and started to grow out of it to where i was about 140 in the 7th grade. once i reached 8th grade, my “relationship” at the time (i was young i know) pushed me to lose weight and want to reinvent myself. i lost about 15 pounds from february 2018 to june 2018 and was steady around like 125-130. i was also a cheerleader at the time. this was also the period of time in my life where i discovered smoking weed. this changed me dramatically and overtime i developed a bad dependency on it and from about october 2018 to now, i’ve gained about 35-40 pounds and a bad addiction to fast food and eating out. i also don’t cheer anymore. i got into a new relationship with someone who wasn’t exactly the best role model for me and enabled this addiction, and i’m still with him. in august 2020, something happened between us and i gained about 20 of those pounds (155-175). i’ve now realized i had denied my bad dependency on food and drugs for so long that i didn’t realize how bad it got. i was so happy with myself before and now i can barely stand to look at myself in the mirror. i’m finished denying that i have an eating disorder and want to figure out how to mentally change my bad relationship with food and develop a healthy relationship instead. sorry if this post is a mess, i just feel like i need some guidance.
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