I recently lost both my job and my grandfather. Losing my grandfather was way worse, but losing my job screwed me over mentally given the circumstances around how I was let go. Before everything, I was on track - counting calories, exercising consistently, and I was starting to fit pants I hadn't been able to wear since before COVID started. I haven't gained any weight since the last time I weighed myself (back in January before everything happened) but my clothes are way tighter and there is fat in places I didn't really have them before. It's likely I lost the muscle mass and gained fat instead. I'm just also bloated from all the crap I was eating.
I know the weight gain was from my severe depression and anxiety - I was literally sitting in a corner of my couch eating bags of chips and cookies a day for about 2/3 months straight. I'm still depressed honestly, but I'm striving to keep moving on and getting back on track. It's really hard though because now, on top of all that has happened, I really hate the way I look in the mirror. And its so hard for me to not grab parts of my body and just...hate that I can grab a handful.
I've gotten back to the gym and have gotten rid of all the junk food I've accumulated. I'm cooking my own food again and starting to enjoy getting into shape, but I'm just so scared that one day I'll get really unmotivated again.
Does anyone have any advice to stay motivated and not spiral? I understand that therapy is the best option, but I'm unemployed so sadly I can't go to one (I would love to though).
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